In my youth, perhaps thru 6th grade, 10-11 years old, I wanted to become a savior, and get people to do good things.  I believed in love. that good things happen, and that God was a real entity.

Now, in 2018, at 71 years old, I think American values were never real, white people are mostly deceitful and racist, almost all men and boys are misogynist, and, worst of all, I fear words. 

I intended to be a defender when I "grew up," and to avoid conflict and wrong doing, I would ask "What would Jesus do?" 

Now I think I am a snowflake, or a wimp or what?